shinging

I'M NOT GOING TO BE LATE FOR GP AGAIN. Refer to list of 25 random stuffs about me, number 11.
"I can't sing, at all. Please don't drag me to teoheng or kbox. I will just curl up and die."

Loss III

A third kind of loss - losing sleep.

Loss II

Looking back, what constitutes a loss? Something that you once possessed? If that is so, what happens to the losers of the field? In a purely capitalistic world a fight determines winners. There is no win-win situation, because win-win situations call for compromises to be made. And a compromise will reduce the pleasure or satisfaction of the winning party, and if too large a compromise is condoned no one gets any benefits, and it is a lose-lose situation anyway.

Losing has its benefits. Either for the winner or loser. For the smart and optimistic loser a defeat simply spurs him on to retrieve what he had lost. For the weak simpleton, a defeat is the end of the world, but it is also a bonus for the winner - to see his opponent fall on his knees, crushed and demoralised. It is an added satisfaction, to see the extent of the damage that he can exert.

A loss is only something that one has failed to gain.

Loss

Prepare to lose, or possess little to lose?
'You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.What have you lost? Nothing!' -Eric Idle (Monty Python)
Losses ae vicissitudes; to live one's life with a preparedness to lose is exhausting. It is too much of a burden to have this mentality forever switched on. Of course, we should not live in complacency and believe in a naive manner - that what (or really, who) we possess will steadfastly stay by our side.

要等到失去，才懂得珍惜

How many enlightened souls do not commit what is stated above? How many times do we remind ourselves to cherish, but in the end, cry out our woes, for we have not exploit every second we spent with our loved ones; have not professed our love brazenly to them, told them our dreams and fantasies; have not put in our best in life?

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What I conclude, is that cherishing is impossible, because taking things for granted is a human instinct. Whereas being prepared to lose, is just a Utopian state of mind in this volatile and unpredictable world of today.

In response to dc gray

Whoop!

So the holidays are midway exhausted, and the imminent onslaught of school is blinking on the horizon. Ok, I don't really adore Facebook, so here's my list of 25 random stuffs:


1) My stomach used to have 2 shades of colour, so it was slightly darker on one side than the other.

2) I am left-handed. My font slants towards the right, like italics.

3) One of my eyes is smaller. Inherited from great-grandpa. Haiya I have small eyes anyway.

4) As a kid I had fantastical dreams of becoming an army officer.

5) I scrimp on food to save for something material that I really like. Something I doubt my PWmates will do! :D

6) I have no appetite in the morning.

7) Even when Wing communicates using msn or sms, I can hear her voice inside my head. Strange.

8) I have a sudden inclination to study biomechanics and work at Singapore Sports Council as a Sports Biomechanist, which is mostly impossible.

9) I also have a sudden inclination to study product design and design mobile phones (that won't have easily-damaged scroll wheels). But I have absolutely no inkling of how to use CAD/Photoshop; another impossible inclination.

10) I always wear size 32 pants. I don't know why; they seem to fit perfectly when I don them during a purchase. They then proceed to droop when I go to school. A lot. Ahh, the gravity in school is 99999ms-2.

11) I can't sing, at all. Please don't drag me to teoheng or kbox. I will just curl up and die.

12) Back in Sec 2 I really like indoor soccer boots, so I made a promise to myself that as long as I can play on the same level as Greg I would get a cheap variant. Alas, that day never came. I have 2 left feet and can never play sports. Or dance. Yep, or dance.

13) I have a violence tendency, I think. Especially towards little kids. When I was young I saw a kiddo peep at someone changing at an apparel store (unintentionally of course, or he was really horny). I had the insane urge to dangle him upside down at that time. Then there the noisy kids on the train... (If they were cute they were forgivable.)

14) Extremely disorganised is me. I only start packing up when I don't have any tables left in the house to study at.

15) I used to bully june bugs. I regret that. It haunts me. When I think of it.

16) I used to bully ants too. Maybe it made me feel powerful to lord over insects. Since I was being bullied in primary school. Nah I wasn't. Only twice.

17) I can't take crustaceans. Prawns and crabs. And yabbies. They give me an itchy throat. Don't adore them anyway.

18) Sweet corn is a reminder of my quiet, stumbling self in kindergarten.

19) Was an NP kid.

20) Have more polo tees than T-shirts (haha yeah it's the "xC shirts").

21) No slippers! Prefers shoes.

22) I have a terrapin..

23) (Getting shorter...) Dislikes coloured canvas shoes. Sneakers are nicer.

24) Hates running. D:

25) This one's for Wing: I am Ving *solemnly* (or vin$$, kaya, angel, or whatever)

Yikes, time for a haircut! D:

Health

NUS Open House wasn't extremely exciting, but I now am more affirmed of the various faculties.
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I need some life maintainence. Nope, not chicken soup for the soul, but physiological fixes, patches and upgrades. I look healthy and rosy and brown outside, but lurking deep down I suspect a gathering of tapeworms and other fluffy monstrous creatures, in connivance to wreak havoc on my physical form.

An average Joe can see I'm in extremely poor form. I tired easily, have short attention span, oily face, and the occasional chest aches. Not counting the instances when my heart goes 200 miles per hour. It's pretty scary. I wonder what my mindef medical checkup will say. Oh I got a further reporting order from mindef; says that I failed to register on the ns portal. What a joke. Screwed-up website.

Argh. I got a headache, and my phone is spoilt. My smses!! D:
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I'm not a hardcore fan of reading horoscopes, but here's one for Scorpios today:
"...really wants to get to know you, but that stone-cold veneer is impenetrable."
Ahh, am I a frosty person? Cold and not emotive? It's just that I cannot express myself properly :)

拜六了拜六了!

I woke up on the wrong side of bed today - not literally, no (which would be the the wrong side anyway?) - it's the ache in my eyeballs and the heavy muscles that live in misery and lethargy.
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Xiong Mao! :D